This is not going to be a happy go lucky post. Please don't get me wrong, I have a great life, 2 great kids and a wonderful husband.
While I was pregnant I was diagnosed with depression and put on an anti depressant. I took it for 3 months and weaned off so that Austin would not go through withdrawls. I thought "ok, I will have to obviously have to go back on after he is born". I didn't cause I was ok. I was handling having a newborn,a 4 year old, a household,a husband, and was handling the sleep deprevation quite well.
With in the past 2 weeks my depression has crept back and with a vengance. I have anxiety as it is, and couple that with irrational thoughts and feelings I am a NUT CASE! Post Partum Depression is a serious illness and I thought I would never experience it. I always thought that I could handle whatever life threw at me. Boy was I wrong. I have a defiant 4 year old, of course I have bad days, but lately my bad days are everyday. So I have decided that although I am still breastfeeding I will go back on meds. Oh and Chris got laid off too... I think that is what may have caused some of the feelings I am having. So if anyone needs a plumber let me know!lol
On a happier note, my brother is flying in tomorrow from Afghanistan and I am so glad he is coming home if even for 2 weeks.
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