Tuesday, June 16, 2009

oh good grief

This is not going to be a happy go lucky post. Please don't get me wrong, I have a great life, 2 great kids and a wonderful husband.

While I was pregnant I was diagnosed with depression and put on an anti depressant. I took it for 3 months and weaned off so that Austin would not go through withdrawls. I thought "ok, I will have to obviously have to go back on after he is born". I didn't cause I was ok. I was handling having a newborn,a 4 year old, a household,a husband, and was handling the sleep deprevation quite well.
With in the past 2 weeks my depression has crept back and with a vengance. I have anxiety as it is, and couple that with irrational thoughts and feelings I am a NUT CASE! Post Partum Depression is a serious illness and I thought I would never experience it. I always thought that I could handle whatever life threw at me. Boy was I wrong. I have a defiant 4 year old, of course I have bad days, but lately my bad days are everyday. So I have decided that although I am still breastfeeding I will go back on meds. Oh and Chris got laid off too... I think that is what may have caused some of the feelings I am having. So if anyone needs a plumber let me know!lol

On a happier note, my brother is flying in tomorrow from Afghanistan and I am so glad he is coming home if even for 2 weeks.


Kate said...

Hang in there friend! If we need a plumber, you will be the first people we call! You will be in my thoughts and prayers! Take care!

Jen said...

Hang in there sweetie! We are here for you whenever you need us. When you are feeling a bit better or are ready for a break, lets you, me Kate and the kids head to the beach. It might do you some good :-)